sk1nnywhiteboy

sk1nnywhiteboy @ 2005-05-05T20:40:00

2005-05-06T00:41:39Z

i realized my last post sounded kinda bad. For anyone who was planning the cops or whatnot, to clarify, I am not suicidal, just not going to be posting anymore of these.

sk1nnywhiteboy @ 2005-05-05T20:35:00

2005-05-06T00:35:23Z

i'm pretty sure this will be my last entry. so yea...bye

sk1nnywhiteboy @ 2005-05-04T23:15:00

2005-05-05T03:14:14Z

pissed off

sk1nnywhiteboy @ 2005-05-03T00:11:00

2005-05-03T05:01:57Z

Yea, while since i last updated. I finally understand math, which is cool - derivatives. Backtracked on what I want to do carreer-wise. Need to perfect my schedule for next year cuz i won't be able to change it. Also need to take SAT's again and take ACT's for first time. Also gotta finish up my NHS credit hours and submit them.

Old feelings coming back - not so good, but thankfully they're not as full throttle as they were before - just a wow, that'd be really cool if that could happen type thing. I hate caring so much about what this person says - why them over anyone else, especially when its this person that's killing my ego the most with not-so-nice comments which I inconveniently care about?

Recent devlopments have boosted my ego a bit though - we'll see how that plays out.

Things have changed drastically in the stress department - I remember saying just last week the only thing stressing me out now is school, and I'm glad there's no other drama in my life. I said to myself that there's no use stressing out over friends/girls cause very few of them will actually carry on to later in life. Now though friends/girls have been on my mind a bit with mainly two people I'm concerned about, but thankful for all the others I don't have to be concerned about. I'm getting closer with some people, which I like.

Made a myspace....yea.

Reeeeeeaaaallly want to go back to gym. It's my own fault I know. And to all of you out there who yell at me for being up late, that I have no more hw than anyone else..yadayadayada. I KNOW. I just choose to procrastinate so LAY OFF. =)

Why do we always want what we can't have? It really blows.

I'm disliking the backstabbing/sharing what other ppl confided you that i'm seeing (mostly within the female gender)

People who are only nice when they need something bother me, along with those who act differently towards other people contigent on their mood

sk1nnywhiteboy @ 2005-04-03T01:40:00

2005-04-03T06:42:49Z

I've become everything I once stood against and it bothers the shit out of me.

sk1nnywhiteboy @ 2005-03-19T23:44:00

2005-03-20T05:05:14Z

School grades are definetely picking up - all but math. I'm just really not good at it. I think I need a tutor.

Getting along better with parents-end to grounding might come early =). Getting my phone back, being able to go back to gym, and being able to use the car more freely would be nice.

Need to get my ass in gear for my NHS credits. Have 1 and still need to get the paperwork filled out for it. I know which kids I am going to tutor, and if I just do that for ten hours, I just gotta choose to do one of the events they've got scheduled. Tutoring can count for two credits right?

I'm pretty happy about being on fairly good terms with some close friends whom I wasn't getting with for a while. The specifics havn't quite been addressed yet but I'm happy to be in a position where they could be. I missed not having people to bike 5 miles in the rain on a cold night for.

I've decided - until I change my mind next - that I want to go into business. This is a good thing for me because I was pretty unsure about what direction I wanted to head my life in carreer-wise.

On that note I should probably change my schedule so I'm taking some business classes next year. Any recomendations for anyone whose taken them?

Gotta solve a pretty complicated situation of mine that unfortunately, if I want things to go well, cannot be resolved any time soon. I think I've decided on what course of action I'm going to take and see how well that works out, then take it from there. I really need some closure in this particular matter so we shall see about that.

Looking forward to hanging out with people I havn't seen in a while this break - have quite a few people falling into that category. Ungrounded as of spring break so my cell phone will be on then. Everyone who wants to hang out over break call me then.

sk1nnywhiteboy @ 2005-03-14T18:01:00

2005-03-14T23:12:53Z

I need to find out what i'm gunna do about math. I'm not good at it. I think I might take 4bc pass/fail, then just double up on an english next year and just not take math. I'm not sure about either yet. Gotta talk to councelor. It just leads to the bigger problem of time management issues, which ever the more prevalent.

Good school day otherwise. 96% in lit - liking that, weightraining was good, watson test was sweet (thought it was gunna be hard but wasn't),and just an overall thinking and reflecting day i guess. Got home, took a nap, and yea..

Came to a revalation today that I hate being pitied. Like I really hate it. I've made a lot of decisions in the past based on that feeling but could never really point it out. So I've come to the conclusion that I'm going to not tell anyone but the people I'm closest with about my problems unless it involves them or they might be able to help. Yup..

The truth can be a bitch - necesary to hear - but a bitch. I hate being pitied so not letting a lot of poeple know about it. It's just something I gotta get through on my own.

sk1nnywhiteboy @ 2005-03-07T23:30:00

2005-03-08T04:57:28Z

Whether intentionally or not, someone helped me realize the other day, that did not just occur to me for the first time, but it was the first time that it really clicked. We only live once, and to just go on leaving issues unsettled and being pissed at poeple, is no way to live that time. I've decided that for the next couple weeks I'm going to attempt to come to terms with anyone and everyone I'm having problems with, solve the problem, and just move on with life. It is so childish and immature to waste my time holding grudges, and even more so to just ignore the issue completely. If I know that I did everything I could to try to resolve issues that come between me and other poeple and show some human decency, then I will be able to sleep at night being content with myself. If the person on the other end isn't willing to devote some time to solving the problem, then they are not worth my time.

It's been my motto for as long as I can remember to confront people with whatever is bothering me. Lately I've been falling behind in that practice, and even though I know everyone is guilty of it to at least some extent, it does not make it right. Talking shit to other people about what another person is doing that is pissing me off solves nothing.

I’m at about in my life where I’m being very objective. It's an awesome feeling. I’m only worrying about the important stuff and don’t really care a whiole lot about what others think of me; as long as I know I made the effort to do all I could to do the right thing. I'm also clamping down on my procrastination problem.

Games project is finally over. Sixteen page paper....whew. So happy I'm never going to need to worry about it again.

So fucking psyced...

sk1nnywhiteboy @ 2005-03-03T19:35:00

2005-03-04T00:36:44Z

minus one unresolved issue today i was in a really good mood. it was nice

Was that two or three fingers? Way to be subtle...(no one will get this but 2 people and it's not a sexual reference)

sk1nnywhiteboy @ 2005-03-02T23:48:00

2005-03-03T04:55:03Z

I find myself at a crossroads between making sure my friends are happy or furthing my own happiness. Though my point of veiw may not be the same, I'm not prepared to lose any more of my closest friends than I already have. So, I'm putting my foot down here and now to preserve the friendships I have left. I apologize to whom this affects. You know who you are. I know we can figure something out where everyone can be happy.

On a related note to those who I have lost already...I know a lot was said, and the shit hit the fan pretty hard. I sincerely hope we can talk things out and work out our differences, and that it's not too late for that. If it is, then it was good while it lasted, and I know you all will go on to lead successful happy lives.

School...just gotta keep trucking. When the games project is over i'm going to party till i pass out. Not quite but something close to that. So after monday i'll be able to come back to gym, which i'm looking forward to.

Cell phone's gone till spring break, so people call my house/e-mail/im me after this weekend and we'll do something.

sk1nnywhiteboy @ 2005-02-09T00:06:00

2005-02-09T05:05:39Z

I wish things didn't have to be such a big deal.

I wish I didn't have to think of how my actions affected others.

I wish I could just go with my gut feeling and do what it's telling me.

But if i did i know I'd just be fucking myself over.

We need to talk

sk1nnywhiteboy @ 2005-02-08T23:33:00

2005-02-09T04:42:41Z

I think i can bring my GPA this year up to a 3.7 in summer school. Should be fun. Gotta do what I gotta do for fucking up. If i can work something out with my lit teacher maybe higher (you can only take 2 summer school classes but i only got a B in her class cause of the final so it wouldn't make sense to take the semesters that i got A's in over again, especially since sumemr school doens't give finals). So wish me luck there.

Come to a dilema in the women department - havn't had one of these in a while. I know I can't get too serious with anything with grades on the line and all so...doesn't look like any full-out relationships happening soon. In the meantime I intend on having some very shnazy lady friends to have around.

Grades slipped and now lost a couple friends. Pretty great eh? Getting closer with others so it's not as bad but it still sucks to think about.

Acing psycology so very happy about that.

Anyone whose not going out of town over break and wants to hang out leave a comment. I'll try to pencil you in sometime between game project working. Not saturday night tho, but PARENTS ARE GOING OUT OF TOWN THURSDAY-SUNDAY. Very excited about that (Except for the whole not being able to go with them to arizona thing) but....Party anyone?

Sam, ellen, christy, "ap-us-all-nighter-group" (jacob,jacob, erica, ilana), chris, devore - i'm looking at you people. I'm sure I've forgotten some. Very sorry. Feel free to comment and yell at me and see what we can do over break.

C ya

sk1nnywhiteboy @ 2005-01-24T14:28:00

2005-01-24T22:29:23Z

Grades plummetted down to a fucking 3.5 weighted. Need to get a 4.0 this semester to even begin to compensate. Councelor, principal, parents, and ap bio teacher wants me to drop ap bio but i'm having trouble with it (it's a pride thing). Many issues go along with it that i don't want to go into. Summing it up - it's hard for me to handle being 2nd best and by dropping a class, for me, it's admitting to myself that all the people who have my schedule or harder (there are quite a few) are more capable than I am, and knowing many of these people personally makes it even more difficult. So i gotta decide by monday if i'm dropping bio or not. Really pissed about my B in lit because i was counting on that grade being an A, and it isn't even a hard class. My grade was off by 9 points out of....a few hundred. The other B's i got weren't a huge surprise. Bio, I knew i would cause i got an 80.3 first quarter so it would have been difficult to bring that up, math i got stuck with a shitty teacher first quarter and got a C, spanish...my fault for not working hard enough, and ap us i dunno my grade yet. So moral of the story is school sucked for me this semester. It’s Monday and after lots of deliberation I’ve made the hard choice to drop it.

Women...still don't have feelings for anyone...save small bit of feelings here and there that are just inconsistent, inconsequential and definetely not something to base anything on. It's a good feeling i guess, freedom-like. Recently have met met a couple new people who seeming like in the future might be possible candidates, but for now, really just have no desire to go into a relationship any time soon; too much crap i have to worry about to have to add something to that list. This year being the most important year of my school carreer and already fucking it up. I guess i do miss the momentary stuff, and not just the sexual crap (cuddling, intimacy etc.), but when i think about a full-blown relationship right now i know i don't want one. Also, oddly starting to find someone i know attractive that i guess i never really thought of her that way despite what people around me said. Never sank in i guess. *cat call*. Oh and someone in keegoland owes me a kiss. You know who you are.

Starting gym again, which is awesome. It takes my mind off shit and i enjoy it. Currently sore from a combination of that and weightraining (havn't worked out in...a couple months regularly and intesively). It's a great feeling.

Squabbles over stupid things bother me. Friends and family.

On a lighter note, seriously winding down, from months ago up to 6 to now, at twice, once or...even none - crazy i know. Very rarely though, sometimes 3. Hope i'm putting lovely visuals in everyone's mind who reads this.

I apologize to anyone whose head i have fucked with. I'm pretty sure there's one but in case there are more...i am sorry.

I've been told I do things to only benefit myself and don't care if it inconveniences others in the process. I've yet to hear an example of this happening but i've been told this by two people - bothering me considerably when it came from the one presenting coherent thoughts at the time. Going out to most people who read this, let me know when you think i do this again, so i have an idea of the hell your talking about cause as of now i've just heard the statement, with nothing to prove for it.

Tell me if this sounds rediculous to you to. Someone accuses you of something. You ask for examples. They give them, and you refute them. Then they tell you you're looking at the facts too much and not at the main idea. Does this sound rediclous to anyone else but me or am i going crazy?

I need my own car. Getting sick of my parents shit.

Molly don't let me forget to give you your gift. And sam, i gotta give you something too.

Today work was canceled so i got a chance to sleep in till noon. Fucked around till 5, then over to molly's to hang out with her and nickie. Played a lot of DDR, which I'm pretty sure i'm getting better at. I love that game - think i might buy it, and the game system to go with it...So, left molly's at 8:30 cause i didn't have the car and that was the only time I could get picked up. Ussually I'd be pissed but not too big a deal this time, just missing out on a french prince marathon and more DDR. No out-of-control/off the hook partying going on or anything.

So now i'm home and I'm gunna go outside, get some air. Think I'll go sledding, shovel the ice so i can skate around a bit, and have some thinking time. Not very good packing snow so no igloo. My girbil will be keeping me company.

I find myself in the same position as someone I know but probably not in exactly the same way. Looking for something more out of life than what's going on right now, but i think i have a better idea than he does. I know in what area of my life i want things to change. There's two of them: friends and what i do in my spare time (school's a given). There's a bunch of friends of mine who I'd like to get to know better and a lot of people i don't know at all who i'd like to know better. The way i spend my free time - has to do with where i live so can't really do anything about that right now. I'd also like to go somewhere this summer. Roadtrip anyone?

Merely as an observation: is it just me or does religion seem to be declining these days in its activity in people lives?

Lately I've been thinking a lot about what i stand for; what big opinions I have and what I plan on doing with my future, job-wise and after college stuff. I think i want to move to north carolina...One revalation i've come to is with the exception of school i don't need to worry about anything save making sure i do the things necesary to put on my college application (gym and community service crap). It's really something to think about. It's really the only thing right now that my decisions there affect me on the long term level, so i've decided to fuck everything else and just not worry about it. Being in shape, appearance, people being mad at me...honestly I've stopped caring. It's a pretty good feeling; a little weight off my shoulders. Why should I worry...why should i waste my time? It's just pointless to try to please everyone and I'm done with it. So, basically done caring about whatever problems people may have with me. If it's legit i'll attempt to reconsile our differences, but after that i'm not going to continue to worry about it.

In case anyone asks, i'm a raving homosexual who loves the cock. LOVES IT.

Devore, Christy, Lamar, and Hollie gimme a call for this weekend. (Different stuff)

I've decided I like Jake better so...yea

Still playing the game...let's see where it goes from here.

Music: Mask of Zorro soundtrack, coldplay, styx – loreleil, bad religion – sanity, jet

sk1nnywhiteboy @ 2004-12-29T00:40:00

2004-12-29T06:14:44Z

life is good i guess. heading in the right direction on a couple fronts.

school stuff - gotta get started tomorow. hw party anyone? All are invited if you're really gunna work.

REALLLY gotta start working out consistenly, not just the sparatic here-and-there stuff i've been doing - all are invited to that party as well.

It's tough trying to do stuff you wanna do with your family in from out of town cause your kind of obligated to spend time with them. It's not that i mind speanding time with them. It's just I'd rather be doing other things.

Speaking of which New Years is gunna be fun trying to work out. 3 different places i've been invited to go. One of them there's a lot of pressure for me to go (family) and the other I want to go to as well. So we shall see how that works out.

Gotta call the computer guy so i can pay the damn bill and get my computer back. Five Hundred someodd fucking dollars! We'll see how that goes. Gunna talk to him and see what's the deal. But I miss my music and Quake and real AIM.

Gotta get my sleeping habits straightened out again and gotta start not going to bed so late and sleeping till noon.

Saw National Treasure and Meet the Faukers so far this break. Both good movies. Also during my late nights saw The Last Samaria and Die Hard 3. Good movies too.

Started reading Don Quiote - long book.

Got a haircut...feels pretty good. I knew it was time for one when i took a shower this morning and saw two strands of hair on the floor of my shower that looked like they could belong to a chik. Pretty random I know.

Call the cell if your interested in either of the parties.

Night

sk1nnywhiteboy @ 2004-12-25T16:21:00

2004-12-25T22:44:48Z

Gotta get started on my schoolwork sometime soon. Specially worried about ap us cause i really need to get my ass in gear on that games project. So probly gunna force myself to start my hw tomorowish. We shall see...

Women situation...whew. Very different from what i'm used to. It's much more low keyed with less drama which i'm enjoying. Experiencing a clear mind, almost having an on/off switch in regards to that part of my life is very handy. I have no plans to begin a real relationship with anyone right now and I think i'm gunna keep that way for a while, making it easier to keep the different parts of my life separate, and enabling myself to concentrate more on the more important things that I have and want to do while still enjoying my social life.

Gym/ working out - planing on getting that started back up again asap and truly intend on working harder than i previously have been.

I've been having a lot of dreams lately. I think i've had at least one a night. Really vivid ones too that actually make sense. I think it might have a correlation with sleeping in because my sleeping patterns lately have consisted of going to bed round 2-4 and waking up between 11:30 and 1:00. The material in my dreams has also varied greatly. From the ones i can remember i've had a getting-scary-report-card-dream, a fighting dream, and couple real life scenario ones that i don't remember well.

Brother's been staying at home during break. He's changed since he left the house at the end of the summer. I'd say he's grown up a bit, and we havn't fought yet. Compared to the constant fights that were happening before he left (the physical kind). I don't see much of him though cause he sleeps all day and stays up all night. I still havn't gotten in on the U of M parties I was promised so we'll see about that.

Dad offered to take me and a friend up north skiing for the weekend. Reservation has to be cancelled in 7 minutes and i'm not too keen on going so don't think that's gunna happen. I have homework I gotta do and other friends i'll probly wanna hang with other than the one person i'm allowed to take. Mom said dad was thinking of taking me to Florida to see Cirque Du Soleil but I don't think that's gunna happen either.

Finally decided room was getting too messy to live in so sat my ass down and fixed it up for an a couple hours so its not a dump anymore. No more stepping over mounds of crap to get from one end of my room to the other.

I need a haircut again. And gotta get my computer back to.

Thinking about shoveling all the snow into a big pile and digging it out. Anyone wanna help? Call the cell.

Went skiing the other day for the first time in a while. Pretty fun except for the cold factor. Couldn't feel fingers for a good portion of the time. And it kinda sucked getting stuck on the chairlift for 40 min. So i stuck my hands under my coat against my skin - pretty effective actually and wakes you up pretty well.

Just as a sidenote, something I find quite funny about livejournals. I do it myself but it's still funny nonetheless: When people speak of people like "I hate when people do this, and don't you hate it people are like this...." - basically dancing around names when everyone knows who your talking about anyway.

Kevin, quit being so terrified of your friends ditching you. You know Sean was, as you put it, "being a cock" the other day, and going way out of line with his comments just to piss me off, but while he was there you just sat there while he and I were going at it. Grow some balls and stand up to your friends when you know they're being dumbasses. If they really are your friends they'll listen.

Family's going to be out of town till tuesday i believe (going up north) so planning on taking full advantage of that.

Cell phone's working - call it.

sk1nnywhiteboy @ 2004-11-26T21:52:00

2004-11-27T06:55:53Z

I wrote this all up a couple weeks ago, but the computer froze so i gave up on it. But i'll try at it again.

So was sneaking out at 10 at night to bike 5 miles in the rain worth it? If I was the only one getting in trouble and didn't get anyone else involved...possibly. I just desperately needed to get out of the house before I did something I'd regret. See, I've got issues regarding my family, including a short temper on my part when it comes to their bullshit, and it gets me in trouble constantly so I really need to fix it. Julia, my 4 year old sister is about the only one in my family i can tolerate.

I apologize to all whom I affected by my actions that night. It wasn't very bright or conciderate on my part to get other people involved in my shit, and you too dani (who i just got off the phone with) cause you can't go to that thing (which we will not name) because i got one of the people you were gunna go with (who will not be named) in trouble. So sorry to all of you once again.

Anyway so allowed at the library, starbucks, caribou, barnes and noble or my house (with few exception which i'd have to clear beforehand) without "supervision" i think...something like that. Anyway, I can't stand my family and can't wait to get out of here when i'm ungrounded. Im temporarily ungrounded the weekend of my birthday though not sure I can get the car yet. And rents are saying i gotta be home at 9...fuck that shit. I'll have to figure out a way to get out of that. So, other than the weekend before my birthday i'm restricted to those places so that's where i'll be till winterbreak if anyone wants to make plans.

I got my comfy office chair taken out of my room and replaced with this dinky cheap one cause the damn secretary broke the chair downstairs cause she's fat so they took mine. Bastards...

Went to DSW to get my punching bag but ended up buying something like the white wobbly thing we have in the gym ( the one by the bars for dips and chin ups and stuff...cept this ones better) instead, figuring i'd use it more often and also keeping in mind i'd only get a a year or so out of it till college. And parents won't let me put the chin up bar back up cause it's fucking up the doorways. So, meanwhile the walls, doors, and Jonathan will have to suffice.

While we were there i got new shoes. Oh and btw it was FUCKING hilarious watching my 83 year old grandma trying out all the different punching bags while we were looking at em. (just picture it in your head, i promise you'll get a good laugh, especially if you've met my grandma. my mom's mom)

Yea, I need new clothes and any attractive women-folk who wanna come with me to get some are welcome to do so.

Parents have gone on one of their lets-redo-the-house-routines so it looks pretty different furniture-wise and my room's brighter so you can actually see in it - same light as in the closet.

Have i meantioned i hate my family? God they piss me off. On a daily basis. It's like it is on their to-do list for every day to try to top their efforts on the previous day. Man it's hard to stomache their bullshit. Example: I was watching something on tv. Dad sees I left my light and music on in my room. "Turn it off". I say i'll do it in 2 minutes when show was done. "I'll take the computer out if you don't do it immediately." WTF??? Shit like that every day...Anyway, I'm done bitching.

Still need to get a couple people their gifts...hard to do when you're grounded but i'm working on it i promise.

For once i'm not women crazy. It's kind of a good feeling and a bad one at the same time. Good in the sense that I don't have the emotional rollercoaster, bad in the sense that being infatuated with someone gives you that...drive or whatever to strive to be better...you all know what i'm talking about. So i'm kinda in limbo, without any women drama - very different feeling than i'm used to.

gunna try to get all my hw done sat...that'd be a miracle

I need haircut.

I've actually made a grounding playlist. Amoung other things I've spent my time doing while trying to find stuff to do.

Right now i'm just adding to my playlists and then going to bed. good night all

sk1nnywhiteboy @ 2004-09-07T21:50:00

2004-09-08T02:13:52Z

wow. realized i havn't written in a while. got a lil ticked last time i wrote so gave up for a while. Anyway, defintely one of the best summers i've ever had though it went by too fast. Shared most of it with someone I care very deeply about and had lots of good times - no time to list them all thought.

Lately getting stressed out about ap bio cause i bombed the first test and i'm worried about the rest of the year. Could've been cause I studied while having mono, but I dunno how much of it was because of that. Math is kind of my second concern though i'm not worried about it as much.

No gym for six weeks is gunna be a relief cause more time to do hw and all but i do miss it and i don't wanna get weaker and competition season starts in december so thinking a lil about that too. I'm already tired and it's only 10 - mono's gay.

Throats feeling a ton better than it was before so i'm really happy about that and I think i'm making a fast recovery. Though the throat thing is being replaced by tiredness - dunno what that means.

I've got a new room, which is upstairs with the rest of the family, but it is bigger. And more desk space to do hw, and more drawers for storage. Moved some more stuff around today. So far it's not too bad. Just gotta be a lil quieter at night and have to put up with parents checking in once or twice before they go to sleep. I am gunna miss the seclusion though and the opportunity for possible late night guests but it still might be possible =).

Was thinking about carreer possibilities today and I know i want nothing to do with math or science, and I wanna do stuff that involves people and the real world so I thought about a reporter...I dunno just something that crossed my mind.

Gotta go finish ap bio and start spanish. If I think of anything else I'll add it. And gotta try to go to bed earlyish so i can get better.

I still havn't forgotten how lucky I am and remind myself every day.

sk1nnywhiteboy @ 2004-07-15T00:34:00

2004-07-15T04:33:53Z

i wrote a whole bunch of shit but then my computer froze on me and i don't feel like retyping it all so fuck that

sk1nnywhiteboy @ 2004-07-15T00:33:00

2004-07-15T04:32:53Z

i wrote a whole bunch of shit but then my computer shut down and i don't feel like retyping it all so fuck that

sk1nnywhiteboy @ 2004-06-27T23:53:00

2004-06-28T03:52:59Z

never been happier

sk1nnywhiteboy @ 2004-06-18T22:50:00

2004-06-19T03:55:35Z

Sorry about the whole parents interogation thing, and it would have been cool if we could get more alone time. we shall see about that...

really getting sick of not being able to drive and of parents riding my ass every single second. Was worried for a lil bit that I was taking things for granted but i was gratefully reassured I wasn't. Looking forward to an awesome summer, and hoping to hang out with a lot of people i havn't seen in a while as well someone i couldn't possibly see enough of.

Can't thank you enough.

sk1nnywhiteboy @ 2004-06-12T12:46:00

2004-06-12T18:04:45Z

Listening to music

Got through my first and hardest final on friday (chem), which I stayed up till 2 studying for, but i had a very special person keeping me company on the phone.

Yea, from now till wednesday is going to be a bitch. This weekend I gotta do a project for dream, and hopefully get in a lil studying in. I'm hoping the half days will be enough time for that tho. 4 more final exams: spanish, journalism, mock, and math. And 1 project. I hear the spanish test wasn't too hard, and unlike chem I can use old tests and quizes to study for mock, journlism and math. So i'm pretty happy about that cause that will make studying a lot easier.

Drama is cooling down in my life right now, which is a very good thing, and my dad might buy me a punching bag, which will come in handy for when the "drama" comes back. =)

Cannot wait for wednesday. This summer is going to rock. I plan on hanging out with a bunch of people i havn't seen in a while, and hang out with those i have seen more. Which i will squeeze in time for in between work and gym.

FPM - Hell yes.

sk1nnywhiteboy @ 2004-06-03T00:51:00

2004-06-03T04:51:33Z

i'm just so tired
wont you sing me to sleep
and fly through my dreams
so i can hitch a ride with you tonight
and get away from this place
have a new name and face
i just aint the same without you in my life
- yellowcard: rocket

sk1nnywhiteboy @ 2004-06-03T00:27:00

2004-06-03T04:29:36Z

i am by far the luckiest guy alive to have a girl like you

sk1nnywhiteboy @ 2004-06-02T22:53:00

2004-06-03T02:53:08Z

scared and afraid